Tomorrow is super exciting because I am flying to California to meet with the IPs. I am feeling all sorts of different things: happy, excited, nervous, giddy, nervous, relieved that another step is happening, ecstatic, hopeful, nervous. lol. I guess I might be a little nervous. It is always hard to meet new people (in person) and hope that they understand me and that I make a good impression. Cross your fingers and let's hope this goes well. ;) It has been great to talk with the parents over the phone and I can't wait to meet them in person. I already like them so much so I hope they like me too.
I am also nervous about the visit with their fertility doc. I know that I am ready for this to happen and my body is ready right along with me, but it is stressful to think that he could decide I am not right and put a stop to the process. Hopefully my "lovely" and "perfect" uterus will charm him. It sure worked with the docs out here.
My "lining check" ultrasound with the Utah fertility clinic went well last Monday. My uterine lining was at 10.5. The nurse practitioner commented that my uterus appeared "perfect" and ready. She said they use surros when they reach 7.0 so she felt confident that the Cali doc will like how my body has been responding to the estrogen. It felt really good to hear her feedback. Damn right, my uterus is perfect! lol
I am still on the same amount of estrogen patches. My chest continues to be swollen and large. Most ladies would be excited about free growth but I was already big and now just feel awkward. And it doesn't help that my boobs keep trying to pop out of everything I wear. Down girls! My emotions have still been a little off as well. I still cry over weird commercials and TV shows. I even watched an action movie and ended up teary eyed at some points. I haven't felt as peppy as the first week or so, and am feeling tired sometimes. The patches seem to throw off my sleep schedule so I have been napping whenever I get a chance. I guess this is good preparation for when I am pregnant and feel tired. Gotta love little naps here and there. I am still cleaning and organizing like crazy. It feels good to get rid of old things and clean out the house.
I am honestly not sure what else to write about on here. I have checked out other blogs and the writers seem to just write about random things. Sometimes it is entertaining and I relate to them, and other times it feels like a waste of my time. Any suggestions or questions from the peanut gallery? I am sending out the link to friend and family so they can join the fun.
I will post again when I am back from Cali. :)
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Estrogen Overload!
I have been on the estrogen patches for over a week now. I am assuming they are doing what they are meant to do, because I sure feel the effects of them. My chest is swollen and sore, I crave the worst (most yummiest foods), cry over tv shows and commercials, and am nesting. I spent most of today scrubbing the walls, baseboards and floors. I also continued my de-cluttering, throwing out anything that I don't want or need. Out of all the effects, this one seems the most beneficial because my house is so clean and it feels nice.
My follow-up "lining check" ultrasound is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. I am assuming it will go well because I feel extra estrogen-y. I will have to update once it is done.
The last week has flown by. It was hard to go back to work after being off the week before. I had plenty of catching up to do, to keep me busy. I am thinking this week will be the same. There is always too much to do, and not enough time to do it in.
I am so excited that I am getting closer and closer to going to Cali to meet the parents and talk with their doc. I am nervous, anxious, excited, ready. I think it will go well. :)
My follow-up "lining check" ultrasound is scheduled for tomorrow afternoon. I am assuming it will go well because I feel extra estrogen-y. I will have to update once it is done.
The last week has flown by. It was hard to go back to work after being off the week before. I had plenty of catching up to do, to keep me busy. I am thinking this week will be the same. There is always too much to do, and not enough time to do it in.
I am so excited that I am getting closer and closer to going to Cali to meet the parents and talk with their doc. I am nervous, anxious, excited, ready. I think it will go well. :)
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Good News! I am not crazy but may be addicted to Estrogen.
I had my psych eval last Monday. Sorry I didn't get a chance to post but I was very lazy last week and enjoyed it. Anyway, I will admit I was nervous about the eval. Not cause I am crazy but because I had no idea what to expect. The psychologist was so nice and made me feel so comfortable. She asked me lots of questions about why I am doing this, if I have a support network and feel ready, my past history and family relationships, mental health problems, etc. I answered every questions honestly but it was hard to not let my playful sarcastic side come out. It did a couple times but she got that I was kidding and we got along great. The appt only took about 50 minutes and then she said I am healthy and normal, and there was no need to get into anything more in depth. So, there is the proof: I am not crazy. It made me laugh to see the agency director post that on our FB support page. Made me giggle.
The rest of the week proceeded normally. I spoke with the nurse at the fertility clinic about the meds. She said the pills are oral (thank goodness!) but I won't need them until later. I just needed my period to start and then I could start the patches for the mock cycle. I think my body knew how excited I was to get this going, because it intentionally made me wait 4 extra days for my period to start. It was supposed to start last Monday but finally showed up that Friday. Of course on the day we had a pool trip planned. But it did start and I got to start on the patches. They had me start with using 2 but I have now moved up to 4.
The patches are awesome! I am not sure if they are supposed to do this or it is just in my head, but they make me feel tingly for about an hour after I put them on. Then I don't notice I have them, expect I get worried about them possibly coming off so I am careful to not rub my abdomen on anything. Not that I should be doing that anyway. lol. I read about the side effects and was kind of worried but I really have not had any complaints. They actually seem to give me energy and then I get tired the night before they need to be changed. That is my night to relax and get extra sleep. I have noticed that a little hair has fallen out but nothing major. And I have plenty to spare, and know it will grow like crazy during the pregnancy. Everything else seems fine. I will admit I kinda like these little patches. I call them my "pep patches" because they make me feel great and energetic. I may need to find a way to get these again in the future.... Like an estrogen dealer?? :)
This week has flown by as well. I had my initial ultrasound and blood work on Monday. She said my uterus is "perfect". It made me smile. How often does a girl hear that? I kinda wanted to call and brag to everyone I knew about it. I did tell my mom thanks for the perfect uterus and made another friend listen to the whole story. Not sure she wanted to know all those details. Anyway, they said everything looks great and is right on schedule with where my body is on my cycle. She also said my uterus has the shape, size and everything ideal for a pregnancy. It was clear of cysts, growths, tumors. Just a big empty organ waiting for something to be put in it. (Sorry but that sounds odd.) So exciting!! This makes me feel like it is all meant to be and moving in the right direction. I like when life gives me confirmation about what I am doing.
I have a follow-up "lining check" ultrasound next Monday too. I need the lining to be nice and thick, so they know the estrogen is doing it's job. Then I will be flying to Cali for the big exam by the fertility doc. I am looking forward to meeting him. I can't decide by his voice if he is an older "grandfatherly" figure or a hottie doctor.
The other great news is that I got to talk with the parents again this last week. We now have each other's information so we can chat and keep up to date with each other all the time. I am so anxious to meet them and get to know more about them. They sound awesome and I am lucky to be matched with such great people. They seem just as excited so I think this experience will be so positive for all of us. I will meet them in person for the first time when I travel to Cali in a week or two for the big exam. They sound like nice people so I know we will hit it off and like each other. (And I might have FB stalked them and already know a little about them.) I also told the mom (officially called an IP- silly) about my idea to have her and the dad record their voices so I can play it for the little one. It helps with attachment and bonding. The baby needs to hear more than just my voice. The idea is to have the parents record their voices talking about their story, life, likes/dislikes, read books, etc. Then I play the recordings for the baby by putting my iPod on my tummy or using headphones placed over the belly. I looked it up and the ears develop fully at week 16 but they can hear vibrations and tones earlier than that. I think it is a neat idea and am excited.
I also talked with my kid about everything this week. He has known all along because I wanted his support but it is getting closer. He loves the idea and is excited as well. He did ask what we will call the baby. We bounced around ideas for nicknames until the baby has an actual name. He likes "baby hippo or peanut". I like "peanut" because that was my nickname when I was little and still is when I go home for visits.
Well, I better get back to work. More lives to save out there. lol Until next time. :)
The rest of the week proceeded normally. I spoke with the nurse at the fertility clinic about the meds. She said the pills are oral (thank goodness!) but I won't need them until later. I just needed my period to start and then I could start the patches for the mock cycle. I think my body knew how excited I was to get this going, because it intentionally made me wait 4 extra days for my period to start. It was supposed to start last Monday but finally showed up that Friday. Of course on the day we had a pool trip planned. But it did start and I got to start on the patches. They had me start with using 2 but I have now moved up to 4.
The patches are awesome! I am not sure if they are supposed to do this or it is just in my head, but they make me feel tingly for about an hour after I put them on. Then I don't notice I have them, expect I get worried about them possibly coming off so I am careful to not rub my abdomen on anything. Not that I should be doing that anyway. lol. I read about the side effects and was kind of worried but I really have not had any complaints. They actually seem to give me energy and then I get tired the night before they need to be changed. That is my night to relax and get extra sleep. I have noticed that a little hair has fallen out but nothing major. And I have plenty to spare, and know it will grow like crazy during the pregnancy. Everything else seems fine. I will admit I kinda like these little patches. I call them my "pep patches" because they make me feel great and energetic. I may need to find a way to get these again in the future.... Like an estrogen dealer?? :)
This week has flown by as well. I had my initial ultrasound and blood work on Monday. She said my uterus is "perfect". It made me smile. How often does a girl hear that? I kinda wanted to call and brag to everyone I knew about it. I did tell my mom thanks for the perfect uterus and made another friend listen to the whole story. Not sure she wanted to know all those details. Anyway, they said everything looks great and is right on schedule with where my body is on my cycle. She also said my uterus has the shape, size and everything ideal for a pregnancy. It was clear of cysts, growths, tumors. Just a big empty organ waiting for something to be put in it. (Sorry but that sounds odd.) So exciting!! This makes me feel like it is all meant to be and moving in the right direction. I like when life gives me confirmation about what I am doing.
I have a follow-up "lining check" ultrasound next Monday too. I need the lining to be nice and thick, so they know the estrogen is doing it's job. Then I will be flying to Cali for the big exam by the fertility doc. I am looking forward to meeting him. I can't decide by his voice if he is an older "grandfatherly" figure or a hottie doctor.
The other great news is that I got to talk with the parents again this last week. We now have each other's information so we can chat and keep up to date with each other all the time. I am so anxious to meet them and get to know more about them. They sound awesome and I am lucky to be matched with such great people. They seem just as excited so I think this experience will be so positive for all of us. I will meet them in person for the first time when I travel to Cali in a week or two for the big exam. They sound like nice people so I know we will hit it off and like each other. (And I might have FB stalked them and already know a little about them.) I also told the mom (officially called an IP- silly) about my idea to have her and the dad record their voices so I can play it for the little one. It helps with attachment and bonding. The baby needs to hear more than just my voice. The idea is to have the parents record their voices talking about their story, life, likes/dislikes, read books, etc. Then I play the recordings for the baby by putting my iPod on my tummy or using headphones placed over the belly. I looked it up and the ears develop fully at week 16 but they can hear vibrations and tones earlier than that. I think it is a neat idea and am excited.
I also talked with my kid about everything this week. He has known all along because I wanted his support but it is getting closer. He loves the idea and is excited as well. He did ask what we will call the baby. We bounced around ideas for nicknames until the baby has an actual name. He likes "baby hippo or peanut". I like "peanut" because that was my nickname when I was little and still is when I go home for visits.
Well, I better get back to work. More lives to save out there. lol Until next time. :)
Sunday, June 3, 2012
Bring on the meds!
I got my first package of meds delivered yesterday. Patches and oral meds (I hope). I am not quite sure what to do with them yet so I will have to call the fertility clinic tomorrow and get the official word of when and what to do. I also have my psych eval scheduled for tomorrow. I am not really nervous about it but I am fascinated. I will try to update tomorrow with what the experience is like.
The past week has flown by. I was super busy at work but have taken this whole week off to spend time with my kiddo and get some much needed recovery time. Just play and fun for the next week.
I still haven't spoke with the IPs again but am anxious to talk to them. I hope they are getting all their questions answered and are excited to talk with me also.
I guess I should actually tell people about this blog so they can follow it but I also like the idea of just keeping it to myself. Hmmm, what to do, what to do. :)
The past week has flown by. I was super busy at work but have taken this whole week off to spend time with my kiddo and get some much needed recovery time. Just play and fun for the next week.
I still haven't spoke with the IPs again but am anxious to talk to them. I hope they are getting all their questions answered and are excited to talk with me also.
I guess I should actually tell people about this blog so they can follow it but I also like the idea of just keeping it to myself. Hmmm, what to do, what to do. :)
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