Why I made the decision.

I guess it is something I have been thinking about for a while.  I was approached by a co-worker years ago about possibly being a surrogate for her.  I had told her how easy my pregnancy went and that I thought about being pregnant again.  Unfortunately, I wasn't in a position to have a pregnancy of my own.  When I told her about this she thought I might want to help her out.  I was stunned by her request and had to decline because I wasn't in a position to do something this big. I had way too much chaos and instability to handle something this big.
I thought about that request for many years to come.  I talked with some great friends about it.  One of these friends later found herself in a position to do exactly what I wasn't able to.  I was so excited for her and also jealous that she got to have this experience and I did not.  I have thought about it almost continually for the past couple years.
In the mean time, my doctor has talked about the benefits of getting pregnant.  It didn't seem to be in the cards for me and the older I get, the less I think it will happen for me.  But, who knows.  Time brings all sorts of things we don't expect.
When I found out my amazing friend had elected to do the surrogacy again, I decided I wanted to be a part of this adventure.  I weighed the pros and cons, and the pros came out way a head.  It seems like a situation that benefits everyone involved.  I can help a family achieve something I already have and value so highly, and I can feel like I am fulfilling a higher purpose.  It would also be nice to earn some cash and pay off these bills that only seem to grow as time goes by.
I made the decision just before I traveled back home to Wisconsin the end of December 2011.  I was decided but wanted to see how my family would respond.  Those I told about it were excited and very supportive. Some were shocked and not sure how to process something this big.  But no one told me not to do it.  I felt like I was being moved in the right direction.  I came home and submitted my application.  As soon as I hit send, I felt such an amazing peace that I made the right decision.  And now I just await the right family to pick me so we can get this process started. :)