I keep forgetting that this blog is not only about my experience with the surrogacy but is also about my crazy and chaotic life. My way of documenting my own experiences and how everything that happens impacts me and those around me. So today's post is a tribute to my kiddo and the mommy moments I have.
Today was the 1st day of school. 5th grade. That seems like the big times to me. No more little kid assignments, homework, reading, etc. We have moved on to book reports, writing papers, major math stuff, big chapter books and big kid expectations. No more clinging to mom and acting goofy. He wants to be "grown up" and not be embarrassed. I think he was insinuating I am embarrassing but I blame him for the stuff he does to himself. Like singing and dancing in the halls at Back-to-School night last night. Anway, the morning went well and there were no tears by either of us. And I did not do anything embarassing. I was limited to only 5 photos and I stayed within my limit (that he knows of). I was allowed to walk in and help him put the heavy backpack on his desk and then had to quietly leave. I followed the rules and even got a quick kiss in before heading to the lunch room to pay for lunches. I was worried that I would be the only parent in the classroom but noticed several others shuffling in the room or waiting at the door. It was funny to see the other parents that walked their kids in and realize that we are all trying to hold on to the tiny bits of childhood that our kids have left. One mom was teary eyed and I was proud I overcame and avoided any tears. But it is sad to realize they grow up so fast and need us less and less. Within the next year or two, he won't want me to walk in with him or even step foot onto the school grounds. I plan to enjoy whatever I can from this year!
The summer was a blast but went by too quickly. We got some good pool days in, spent time with my parents when they came out to visit, were lazy around the house and stayed up late almost every night. The kiddo did some biking while I walked (sometimes with the dog and sometimes without). We watched movies, played video games and board games, and did lots of talking. The kiddo decided over the summer that it is time for him to learn to drive and figure out directions. I caught him sitting in the driver seat of the car a few times. Luckily he did not have keys or try to start it, but was looking at all the buttons and knobs and asking what each thing does. I helped him start and turn off the car a few times, and let him try the pedals a bit. Whenever we went anywhere, he wanted to know directions and landmarks so he can find his way around when he is driving. I reassured him that we still have about 5 years before that happens, but he is insistent he knows about it now. I thought it was cute, something a little kid would do, but now I am realizing that this is part of him growing up. He is not just mimicing, but wanting to learn so he can do it on his own one day. Like being able to get his own dishes and snacks out, putting things away after himself, and not needing supervision when he is doing hygiene stuff. It makes me sad that he doesn't need me as much but also so exciting to watch him grow into a little man that can take care of himself. ~sigh~ The woes of being a parent and reaching the point that you are parenting a mini-adult instead of a child. It went by way too fast. I don't have any regrets about the past but definitely am making a list of things I want to do with him before he is an adult and moves out. Sort of like a bucket list of things he and I can do together. I have been asking him and his ideas are pretty lofty but I will put them on the list anyway. Maybe I will post the list on here once it is done. :)
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