It is not that I am forgetting or slacking off, but rather that the past couple of weeks have been so busy. I know that is not an excuse so I will try to be more dedicated. And I am hoping that things slow down a bit so I have more time for the things I enjoy, like Facebook and blogging. Work, whew.
Since we spoke last (giggle, giggle- you don't speak back and are stuck listening to my ramblings), a couple things have happened but I warn you they are not happy things. Close this out if you can't bear sad news. :(
Everything in the process was going well. The IM went in for her follicle extraction and they were able to extract a good handful of eggs. They then did the fertilization and ended up with 5 embryos in various stages of rating. The IPs and I were very hopeful, and I think I was a bit naive to expect that if 5 fertilized then 5 would be available for transfer. I wasn't really thinking that maybe the 5 wouldn't survive. Anyway, the embryos continued to day 3 and were still around. The decision was made to keep them growing so they were taken to 5 days. On day 5, only one had survived and it was rated as "fair". By then my period had started so I had happily applied the patches and started my part of the journey. I made calls, texted and updated those that are in the need to know group. (And weird that I was looking forward to another period. ick). On day 2 of my cycle, the decision was made by the IPs and fertility doc to stop the process and do another follicle extraction. I know it was not an easy decision to make for anyone involved. I will admit that I was heartbroken and disappointed. I think I had just gotten too excited for everything to happen and should have realized it was all working out too well. I can only imagine how hard it was on the IPs because this is their baby and future.
Now that I have had time to reflect, I know that it was the right decision. It would have been foolish to go forward with a transfer with only one embryo. The numbers and odds are just against it. I think it will work out better to do another cycle and get more and maybe even better embryos. If that doesn't work, then we can fall back on the one embryo that is currently frozen. Those are my thoughts.
Since that decision, I obviously stopped the patches and have now finished my period. It was another yucky and long one, so I am looking forward to being pregnant and not needing to worry about it. I also found that doing the estrogen patches for three days and abruptly stopping was a weird experience. I couldn't decide if I wanted to cry sometimes or just zone out a bit. It is a very weird feeling, like being stuck in a twisted emotional limbo.
Now I am just waiting for another period or two to start my part of the journey. That gives the IM plenty of time to get her testing and meds done, and have the follicle extraction go well. Then they can create the babies and look at the numbers and quality before I have to start meds again. I know that this time it will work out better and we will be set to go by October. Which is great because October is my favorite month. :)
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