The One Year Reflection

First, I have not posted and kept up as I have wanted to.  I have tons of excuses so just fill in the blank with anything you think sounds reasonable.
Second, I think I have not posted in the past two months (seriously a long time but it has flown by) is because not a whole lot is happening.  After the big disappointment of October, I have just been kind of floating along.  I started my next period in November.  I texted the IPs and contacted the fertility clinic.  I didn't hear back from them right away so my impatient self went ahead and applied the patches.  I was all geared up to get going again, and had my fingers and toes crossed that it would work this time.  When I finally heard back from the clinic, they said they had decided to not do any transfers after Thanksgiving.  My period had started just a few days past their cut off date.  The lab was closing for the entire holiday season so the next available transfer time is early January 2013.  I was surprised to hear this and I think the IM was just as shocked.  You would think they would have told us about a two month break a long time ago, so we could anticipate it.  Oh well.  Not a whole lot we can do now.
So, I am just waiting for my end of December period.  My little app says it should start around the 27th or 28th.  The clinic said that I can be ready for a transfer by day 16 of my cycle, as long as my lining is thickening like it should.  Let's all cross our fingers and toes that it does.  And I promise to be better about keeping this blog more updated.
Third (and most important), I wanted to write about the title of this blog post.  I was talking to a friend the other day about this adventure and it dawned on me that it has been one year since I made the final decision to do this and put in my application with the surrogacy agency.  I have been thinking about doing this for years but I finally decided last December to commit to starting the process.  I looked into different agencies and decided I liked the experience my friend had with this particular agency.  So, then it was putting in the application, checking on the insurance process, talking with other surros about the pros and cons, and then take the leap.  [My new mantra: Leap Fearlessly.]
I have no regrets or fears about the decision I made.  It feels so right and I am ready for the next step in this process.  When I was talking to my friend, it also dawned on me that this situation has become so common place and normal to me.  I get kind of confused when people are taken back about the decision I made and wonder how they don't get it.  Then I have to remind myself that I have been living and breathing this for a year already, and they are still new to the idea.  Maybe they will catch up to where I am now. :)
The last thing I have to say before I stop for the night (cause I am tired and there is so much more to do before bed- holidays, sheesh) is about the Holidays.  It is hard for me to be away from my family during the holidays but I always have my kid and can enjoy the holidays with him.  I think this gives me some insight into why some couples chose this process so they can have their own children and family to make their traditions and memories with.  Having a kid is the greatest thing I have ever done and I am happy to be able to help someone else do this.
Sorry if this post was random but my brain feels like that today.  Happy Holidays to All!!