I thought about posting a final post for 2012 yesterday, but every time I tried to think of what to write I came up against a blank wall. Today, I woke up with all sorts of ideas and things I wanted to say. I took that as a sign to sit down first thing this morning and write this post.
2012 is over. I can't say that I am sad or am looking back thinking it is a year I need to hang on to. There were many amazing memories and great moments, but nothing that I feel like I need to go back and relive or do over. I can honestly say that I leave 2012 behind with no regrets. It was a good year and now it's over.
This year promises to be something so much more, in every way. It is 2013. For the Chinese Zodiac it is the Year of the Snake. This is especially remarkable because that is my sign under the Chinese Zodiac. I take that to mean that this year is my year. Amazing things are going to happen and the world will just click and make sense for me. When this happened 12 years ago (the Chinese Zodiac cycles every 12 years), my son was born. He is the greatest accomplishment of my life so it makes sense to be undertaking this journey and having something as amazing as "creating" new life happening this year. I have a really good feeling for how this experience will go. And I have a really good feeling that it will happen. Finally.
Update on the process: We have basically just been waiting for my next period. It was due to start a few days ago but nothing yet. I did start spotting yesterday so it should be starting at full flow today or maybe even tomorrow. I spoke with the fertility clinic yesterday and confirmed the medication regime to follow once I do start. This time should be a go. So, cross your fingers, think sticky positive thoughts and say those prayers that everything goes right this time. I need my body to cooperate and make a lovely thick lining, and I need the transfer to be successful.
I have been thinking about the past few years of my life and thinking ahead about 2013, and I found there are some things that I want to change. I started making lists of "resolutions" and then saw on Facebook yesterday that an old friend posted she is making "goals" for 2013 and not "resolutions". I like that word "goals" and decided that I am going to do the same. So, I have set some goals for myself for 2013. I feel they are things I can use to guide my life but I won't have to beat myself up or feel regrets if they don't get fully followed or accomplished. And they will all follow one basic idea: to simplify my life. If I don't need it, don't buy it. If it is too hard or causing problems, stop it. If I don't need it, don't eat it. If it makes me feel better or good, do it. If it is someone causing drama, stop being around them. Etc, etc, etc. I feel like this one basic thing can actually have a big impact on my life. And it gives me a good direction and positive vibe to live by. Without getting too complicated or intensive. I shared this idea with some co-workers and friends, and they were excited about the idea. They want to join me in these goals so now I have others to encourage me and keep me on track. And I am happy to help them stay on track, as long as it doesn't get too hard or dramatic. Cause then I will have to avoid them. lol
I was worried about how this New Year was going to start but I feel like today is actually off to a good start. I spent time with some good friends last night. It was the perfect night because we just stayed home and spent time together, watching some movies and sharing some yummy snacks. The kids played together and everyone got along. No worries about driving, going anywhere, getting dressed up, etc. It was a nice way to start off this new year of living simply. When I got home last night, I walked in to find that the dog had pooped on the floor. I was not happy and quickly lost my happy and relaxed feeling. As I was cleaning it up, I started to worry that it was a bad omen to start off the New Year. I worried it meant the year was going to be "shitty". Literally. I worried about it a little and then thought I just needed to go to bed and get some rest, and consider things in the morning. Now, I feel good. Today is going to be good and this year is going to be good. I know that I will keep that feeling going well into this new year.
Happy New Years to you all!! Make some positive goals for yourself and remember to live simply. :)
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